Terrified ....

It was my best friend's birthday .. I left work a bit early, bought her a cake then went to her house where we're supposed to wait for the rest of our friends to celebrate it .. we never actually make a party .. just that we get together , talk and have some laughs ..

We were waiting when we heard her upstairs neighbor at the door talking to her mom and sobbing .. ears dropping told us that it was something about her daughter !!
The thing was that she called her daughter at work to find a man answering the mobile phone, told her that he is a police officer and that her daughter was attacked by someone who hit her at her office and that she was taken to the hospital.
The lady was hysterically crying , saying all the time that her daughter is killed and she is certain as this is what it feels in her heart especially that her son refused to take her to the hospital to see her...
that she called too many times today as if she were paying her goodbye ..

For almost two hours we kept assuring her that the girl is fine or else she wouldn't be taken to a hospital, begged her to stop repeating the death word and pray for her instead .. she prayed and so did we one by one ..
Just when I finished my prayers I went back to sit by her side telling her how I felt comfort fell my heart to replace anxiety as I prayed for her and that I'm now sure she is fine ..
And that's when the bell rang .. it was the girl's cousin .. she told us that the girl was dead since she was found !!

I broke down .. I swear I was never as frightened in my life ..
I realize that these things do happen .. but we only read about them in the news .. never in real day- to-day life .. never that close ..
four days have passed so far, the police still didn't know who did this or why ..

I've never met the girl, and it was my first time to meet her mom ..
But I lived the whole situation .. heard her speak of her daughter and how close they are and remembered my own mom .. thanked God he spared her such a tragedy .. finally sensed the blessing that was in the fact that she went first ..

I never feel safe anymore .. I'm scared of everything and everyone ..
I can barely get any sleep ..
Can't stop thinking of death and how I'm so far from being prepared for it ..
Millions of ideas that I can't fight off that leave me stressed and restless

My Merciful God .. this horrible world is way beyond my powers .. it's too much for me ..
Please protect my beloveds and me and keep us safe
And forgive the poor girl and mercy her and cast patience on her mother ..